a life time subject

choosing your college courses are the worse decision I'm think...
I used to have a lot of ideas and things which I love to do so much when I was young..
but then while you grow~
I realize thats not simple to pick up a confirm choice to cheer the rest of my life..
here it goes which was "wad Imma goonaa do and study in the future"
I dont fucking know...
and another point is parents were always the number 1 problem in my entire life..
I wanted that coll
I wanted that course
I wanted to have some life
well then?
: " thats not a good coll for this sub!.. why don't you try this? this is much more better~ "
"look here son,this is the problem..the fees is not good~ and the location"
I think some of us might having the same circumstance wif me..
yet..
coming Wednesday would be part of the big day in my life..
and it could be busy all day long.. parents planned to take me off to survey survey have a look and shit outta me again...

here come a few word in my mind again
FmL

I am dilemma
I feel a sudden lost of all the image in front of me
Im frustrated

Jesus? would you guide me?